Well, we just went to our 20-YEAR REUNION....Whaaaaat?!?
I know.
I still feel like a little girl A LOT of the time.
I still can't believe that someone has put me in charge of the lives of other people, and didn't provide much of an instruction manual.
I was the person that said she'd never get married, never have kids....now, THREE kids and a hubby later, I'm like: "What the f....?"
(All I've got to say is, watch out for big brown eyes.)
Anyway, back to the reunion:
Everyone looked (and mostly acted) like actual grown ups. It was great to see everyone...even the cheerleaders. Especially since they all are heavier than me. (Hee-hee) I noticed the heft took away most of "the attitude". Anyway....I was (surprisingly) very glad that we attended all the festivities, and we had a great time.
I actually contemplated not going because I was not happy with my weight.
Last reunion I was pretty happy with me, my life/job/car/etc, and even managed to pick up a hubby out of the deal. (My husband and I graduated from the same school/same year, went our separate ways, met back up at the 10-year. Rest=history.)
This reunion, I'm tired, frustrated, and unmotivated - because of: children/weight/hubby/I'm back2school/family drama/money --really, just pick anything short of a rare tropical disease, and I'm juggling it.
So, shit is a mess, and I am the little boy running around trying to plug the holes in the dyke.
I simply have not made myself my priority.
Well I'd LIKE to say that today is the day I change all that, but I'd be starting with a lie.
It's already an OBSCENE time in the morning, and my rug rats will be up at the CRACK of dawn. So that means I will be sleep-deprived and grouchy all day....ergo: tired, frustrated and unmotivated, yet again.
So perhaps, I'll say I'll start Monday after class....?.........umm..........Yes!
Walking for 30-minutes a day to begin it. Shaking off some of my comfort foods....later.
Okay! Making a plan is a good start!
We'll see what happens next.
I'm starting at 158 very uncomfortable lbs. (I'm only 5'2"!!!)
Maybe I'll even post progress pics ....one day. New to this, cut me a break....
I was reading other peoples weight loss blogs, and I ran across this one, that has just really sparked my interest. Her plan is to lose 40 pounds in 4 months....I think I can do that. Need to! She's realistic, and honest, and very funny. Plus she's near my weight/height, so that really makes it real for me. I will be visiting her blog a lot.
I wish us luck!
